Thoughts

Some days I just sit here and wonder what exactly is my purpose here in life.
Am I meant to live this out fully? Am I suppose to follow my dreams and be who I AM destined to be?
Who am I destined to be? Do I know?
what is self fulfillment?
is it waking up every day 6am to go to a job I hate or to school to see others struggling to reach a higher social status?
how bad do you want it? Most people would ask that.
If you want it bad enough you'll get it.
What about when its too stressful to get? Nobody told you how to handle the days where you wanna give up. Oh. Yeah "pray about it" they say. What about when praying seems...almost...pointless? What do you do then? How do you hang on when you feel like you've already fallen off?
Just thoughts. Thoughts. And more thoughts.
The irony Whitney Houston's my love is your love comes on.... I hear you God.